The Garden & The Road

by Doug Haynes

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released February 26, 2017

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Track Name: Gambling Man
we got drunk and walked out the door
stumbled down to the corner store
the wine was cheap and the cigarettes broke
but it was all I could afford

our red wine lips well they touched that night
you woke that morning with sun in your eyes
and I knew right then that you’d be my wife
if I played my cards just right

something about you says
roll that dice, place that bet
I don't have much to lose
do you find yourself gambling on me too?

but Things got tough when the rivers froze
I lost my job when the factory closed
I sold my car for the rent we owed
and you never questioned why

our red wine lips well the talked all night
and we fought that cold by the candle light
I knew right then you’d be the love of my life
if I played my cards just right

something about you says
roll that dice, place that bet
I don't have much to lose
do you find yourself gambling on me too?

your mother called on the 4th of July
and over fireworks said your father died
but I just stood there and watched you cry
and called a car to catch the train

your red wine lips spoke the words of god
whispered voice to the ones you lost
and I felt guilty falling deep in love
as I knelt beneath the cross

something about you says
roll that dice, place that bet
I don't have much to lose
do you find yourself gambling on me too?
Track Name: No, Not Yet
When I left you in the morning you were drunk and preaching pain
how could you watch my empty dancing in the clothing that we made
they were made from old garments, they were made from things we saved
And I loved you in that moment and I love you to this day
But could you clothe me now in rags
and am I still to just complain
like a king to watch his kingdom as it crumbles in his reign
and am I old enough to laugh
as my body starts to age
and I’ll watch you as you pass, as you turn the other page

but come and take me home
and lose in my hands
and tell me what I owe
and I’ll be a better man

When I came to you mourning, I was barely in one piece
I was crumbling at the corners, I was bursting at the scenes
I was screaming inside out, I was blinded by my own
So I walked right past your house and I headed straight back home
But could you house me now in ruins
and am I still to just complain
like a king to watch his kingdom as it crumbles in his reign
and am I old enough to laugh
as my body starts to age
and I’ll watch you as you pass, as you turn the other page

but come and take me home
and lose in my hands
and tell me what I owe
and I’ll be a better man

but I say no, not yet
I should leave but I just can’t move
I say no, not yet
I can be a better man for you

but come and take me home
and lose in my hands
and tell me what I owe
and I’ll be a better man
Track Name: Good Man
oh love
won’t you make me a good man
I’ve been holding my breath
I’ve been running these legs into the ground

Oh love
won’t you tell me I’ve done right
Won’t you take me to bed
we can drink through the night till we’re drunk

It don’t make no sense but you love me
It don’t make no sense but you want me around
it don't make no sense I’m messed up
I’m just on my way down
do you want me now?


oh love
there’s a hole in my heart
that I’ve been trying to fill
with liquor and pills till it gives out


Oh love
I’ve been talking to god
I’ve been waiting too long
for his spirit to take hold of me now


It don’t make no sense but you love me
It don’t make no sense but you want me around
it don't make no sense I’m messed up
I’m just on my way down
do you want me now?

So tell me what you want to do
with me love
I just can’t get enough
of this life I’ve been living too long
and your eyes when you wake
they ask me to stay
but how long will you wait while I’m gone

cuz don’t make no sense but you love me
it don’t make no sense but you want me around
it don't make no sense I’m messed up
I’m just on my way out down
do you want me now?
Track Name: Worry
Sometimes I lay awake at night
to see the sun pass through the blinds
in the apartment that we loved
in the summers that passed by
and I still wonder what you thought
when you looked into my eyes
I left that wine stain on the wall
and the scent of caramel
that you wore when we went out
to a city fast asleep
you always took my hand in yours
I always waited patiently

and all my worries and troubles seem to find me
it seems that all I leave behind me is a mess
and I’m still stuck inside the ruins of this poor excuse to call my head

I wrote a letter with the thought
that I would send it in the post
but then my stomach it got lost
and I forgot where it should go
and so I put it in my drawer
Above my socks beside some change
and I still read it now and then
when my days are full of rain

and it reminds me of the time
and now it seems so long ago
when you were sitting on our bed
and you looked so vulnerable
and you asked me where’d I’d been
and your voice it seemed to shake
and then room began to spin
as I struggled not to break
but then I sunk into the floor
you put your hands around my neck
and as you closed in on the door
you slowly kissed me then you left

and all my worries and my troubles seem to find me
it seems that all I leave behind me is a mess
and I’m still stuck inside these ruins,
I’m still stuck inside my head
Track Name: Darling//Woods
Well I came back from the city to the woods where we grew up
Found the bridge had washed away and all the houses left to dust
but your mother she’s still pretty and your fathers still a drunk
ruling heavy hands and fists that say he’ll never give it up

Darling am I your love
Am I the only one that you’re thinking of
Darling am I your man
Would you find another one just to prove you can

so say it to me now, I need your love I need your love
Like I need my man

When I woke up in the morning to the bed that we had made
and watched the light break through the window shade and rest upon her face
as I traced across her collarbones and down along her waist
and I felt empty in that moment so I left that place

Darling am I your love
Am I the only one that you’re thinking of
Darling am I your man
Would you find another one just to prove you can

so say it to me now, I need your love I need your love
Like I need my man

When I came back from the city to the old arc mountain range.
I found the tree that we had slept beneath, the knife that carved our names
the weeds had overgrown it now and the land it felt so strange
well love I still feel lost and I know you feel the same
Track Name: The Trapeze Swinger
I’m confused between the truth
and how it’s different when I’m honest
I still keep the light in hallways
I still feel like I’m haunted
by the things I heard you say, when you were upstairs in your closet
you were crying in the dark
well in truth that’s what I wanted
Is it honest now if I just sit you down and we keep talking

maybe I’m no good
lately I’m no good
I’m tangled up, a thin trapeze
and fighting like I should

You woke up the other morning
you were looking to feel younger
ran your fingers through my hair
the grey I took after my mother
and the things I heard you say, in a voice that seemed to suffer
you were locked inside the bathroom
you were talking to the cupboards
Is it honest now if you tell me how you plan to keep this smothered?

cuz lately I’m no good
lately I’m no good
I’m tangled up, a thin trapeze
and falling like I should

And on the television screen
when I am lonely and self conscious
there’s a man who spins the truth
and he sings songs about the prophet
And I swear I heard him say, with his hands inside my pockets
all these thoughts could go away
If I just had the will to stop it
is it honest now if I let him down just to change the topic?

cuz lately I’m no good
lately I’m no good
I’m tangled up, a thin trapeze
and falling like I should
Track Name: This Kind of Woman
I’ve been wronged
The kind of a woman I’ll still love when she’s gone
and how do you sleep?
When you’re hating the silence and missing the creaks.

Washing away
Washing away, my love
she’s laughing at me.
Washing away
Washing away, my love
she’s laughing at me.

She’s doing fine
I packed up our love ‘round quarter to nine
and it’s lonely oak
a lonely old dresser just empty and broke

Washing away
Washing away, my love
she’s laughing at me.
Washing away
Washing away, my love
she’s laughing at me.

For this heavy soul
it just gets heavier each day
and how could you know
that I’d give my body, my heart away.

For this kind of a woman
For this kind of a woman has taken its toll
For this kind of a woman
For this kind of a woman has taken its toll
Track Name: The Garden
I’ve paid my debt as the man with his love in his hands
I’ve paid my dues with the love that was lost
I’d give it up if I could but it runs in my blood
I gave it all with no worry of the cost

But then I saw you walking down the stairs
walking with your hair across your face
and I couldn’t help but stare
fatefully afraid that in the morning I’d be lonesome when I’d wake

No need to talk about it
No I need more, No I need more than I’ve got now.
No need to talk about it
No I need more, No I need more than I’ve got now.

And say I left it for the money and the house worth keeping
And say I didn’t let you go
Say I saw you in the garden in the early morning
trying hard to make it grow
I’m still here, thinking only of the road.

So here we are now love, bruised and broke
I’ve been stuck down here too long
with a love like this that you can’t resist
but you know that it’s all wrong

then I saw you laying there
with your hair still wet from the sweat of his brow
and I couldn’t help but stare
standing scared, I got stuck and I don’t know how

No need to talk about it
No I need more, No I need more than I’ve got now.
No need to talk about it
No I need more, No I need more than I’ve got now.

And say I left it for the money and the house worth keeping
And say I didn’t let you go
Say I saw you in the garden in the early morning
trying hard to make it grow
but I’m still here, thinking only of the road.

So say it to me now darling
Say it to me now
that I belong to no one, I belong to no one but the road
Say it to me now Darling, say it to me now.
Track Name: Prize
Well on Monday
Well on Monday I’ll come to take you home
Feel your breath on my shoulders
and your hands in my palms

and this morning
well this morning is as hot as it can be
and it gets harder now to leave you
when you’re looking straight at me

but hold down that river, that look in your eye
it’s the same damn look, it’s the same disguise
that you wore when you were younger
like another man’s prize he’s earned

I will love you till I’m broken
I won’t leave you I’m still holding, on,
and I swear to god I’ll stay here I’m so tired of all this running
so baby I’m yours

well on Monday
well on Monday in a cloud of cigarettes
we can take off all our clothes,
we can dance around the bed

and this morning
well it’s morning and there’s space beneath the sheets
it gets harder now to stay here
when you’re looking straight through me

But hold me close, set me straight
I’ll go find my clothes or I’ll surely stay
like a prize that you’ve been given
only now to give away

I will love you till I’m broken
I won’t leave you
I swear to god I’ll stay here I’m so tired of all this running
so baby I’m yours

And I still leave the light on waiting
to hear your car drive up the pavement
but I can see it in your face that you don’t feel the words your saying

but you will love me till you’re broken
you won’t leave me you’re still holding on
and you swear to god you’ll stay here but we’re tired of feeling lonely
so baby I’m gone.
Track Name: Trouble
Lay me down in times of trouble
Run your fingers through my hair
made our way through all this rubble
and we’re barely even there
and 23 still feels like lightning
when I kissed you on your mouth
and why we’re here you ask me nightly
and I swear I don’t know how

made my way through the darkness
found myself on the floor
find it hard to be like this
found I stare at the door

There you are dressed in the summer
with the sun touching your skin
and like a dream I’d calm to touch her
But I awake to what it’s been
another year of getting older
another year of giving in
I swear to god that I had told you
I’m just as good a man as him

made my way through the darkness
found myself on the floor
find it hard to be like this
found I stare at the door

and I've been looking towards the west
fighting off the payments
I’ve got these broken cigarettes
that I don’t know I’m saving
and I've been looking towards the west
fighting off the payments
I’ve been doing my best

made my way through the darkness
found myself on the floor
find it hard to be like this
found I stare at the door